It’s Not Funny…
Most of the stuff I post here is humorous stuff designed to make people laugh, even when I am talking about “real” things as opposed to diatribes about Doom and Richards. Sadly, I don’t feel very funny right now. I recently found out that my mother has cancer…lung cancer. The best we could expect is maybe three years.
Three years…that seems both long and short, but mostly short. I feel helpless and everyone keeps looking at me like I am supposed to know what is going on as I talk to doctors and all of that. It is a shock to the system to finally be an adult to those who have known you as “that college guy” for so long.
I am man enough to admit I have lived a somewhat sheltered life with my mom always somewhere near home. I have never had to take that much responsibility in my life compared to others my age. I feel selfish when I worry what will become of me. Right now she is recovering from a drainage surgery and it is hard to look at her with all the tubes in her and the swelling and not cry.
My parents divorced when I was young so from an early age it was really just me and her. She had to be a mother and a father to me. She would take me to Atlanta Braves’ Games and I would complain the whole time because I didn’t realize why she was taking me, and I didn’t like baseball much. I feel like a jerk for that.
I never realized just how hard it was for us during those times until after my grandmother died a few years ago and mom opened up more about those days.
I will talk about this more as time goes on. I just wanted all of you to know.